Since childhood, I have been told,
Be happy, stay happy till you grow old.
I was not introduced with all my emotions
‘Being Happy’ was the only notion.
As I grew old, I experienced all my shades
I disliked when I was angry,
Uncomfortable when I was jealous.
Thinking I was not being ‘human’.
Thus, the CONDITIONED me suppressed my own emotions,
Refrained from being my own self.
That ‘SELF’ was rotten and hurt.
Over the period of time,
New experiences blossomed into a NEW self
It made me mirror my own thoughts.
It had all the feelings it should,
It was angry, black, jealous and unhappy
Discontented, sorrowful and gloomy were few more to stay.
The mirror did not resemble a fairy princess
The way I was taught to become.
Uncomfortable I was
Restless and wondering where to go.
Contemplating on the same, I understood.
I still had a choice
The choice to decide,
Either to ignore or to live my feelings
I pondered, reflected and realized,
Was it inhuman to have those NEGATIVE emotions?
Was it BAD to feel BAD!
I wanted to hook to them, I wanted to cry
I wanted to feel and cuddle the feelings tight.
Those feelings had to be welcomed only once,
Accepted all the emotions with all my might
They stayed comfortable with me,
Just being on my side!
The self was contented.
Only then, did I create ways to heal myself
Free from the hurt I had,
This was a new journey for me,
To be an UNCONDITIONED MIND!